I've had so much in my head since I last wrote and I've been so reluctant to put it in "writing." Good, bad, annoying, surprising, all of the above... Sometimes I think if I could get into a routine of writing a little bit everyday that would be a good idea. That would be great if I did well with routine! I do know that some things are just better when they are scheduled and regular. Writing is something that I just have to let burst out. My lack of follow through with routines has sometimes been a liability when it comes to raising kids. We went through more "systems", tried more strategies etc.... They ALL worked..... When I actually followed through.
Right now I'm trying to set more routines for myself- since doing the Design Your Day coaching over the winter, I can see which ones are really useful to me. The last month or so though I've been testing... Not doing the things I know are helpful. Guess what? I'm not working efficiently, I'm not sleeping well, and I'm crabby!
What I've maintained has been hot water and lemon in the am, and getting to the gym. Until now. No worries on the hot water and lemon, but I haven't been to the gym since Monday. My knee is causing trouble and so I thought I should rest it. What that means though is my routine is interrupted and I'm terrified that getting back into it will be tough. It stuns me how such a small interruption to a routine can mess it all up.
I've been getting stronger, my clothes fit better, my energy was great and now I'm feeling old, achy, and sorry for myself. WHICH IS RIDICULOUS! So much of my headspace right now has been taken up by death. I know right? Where did THAT come from?
The older you get the more death touches you. A few weeks ago, a lovely acquaintance passed away unexpectedly. She was my age. Within the same week, the wife of a friend passed away after a long battle with cancer. She was a brand new grandma. This week, every time I go on facebook or into my email, I'm afraid that I will see the news that another friend who is fighting cancer (cancer SUCKS), has passed away. No matter how sore or achy or crabby I am, someone else is fighting a much harder battle.
Thursday night I had a rehearsal for a concert I'm singing in this weekend. I was sitting because my knee hurts, and was feeling a little petulant. The words of one piece jumped up and slapped me-
"Why then should I be afraid? I shall die once again to rise an angel blest. Our birth is but a sleep and a forgetting; the soul that rises with us, our life's Star, hath had elsewhere it's setting."
Powerful words for sure, but what really created the emotional impact was the music. Without the music they are lovely for sure, and maybe that's enough for some people. But the music shoots those words right into your soul. It's like an infusion of new blood~ the melody, harmony, rhythm, dissonance coursing through your veins recharging your spirit.
Last night we rehearsed again and a different piece moved me ~ all the works we are singing are about death and life and resurrection and the SOUL.
Music Feeds Our Souls.
This is why I feel so passionately about the work I do with little ones and families. To be fed by the language of music, to get that infusion of new blood, you have to know it ~ we have to be immersed in it from the beginning of time... The language of music is primal and powerful, but if we allow the brains of our little ones to develop without it, those pathways in the brain will get filled up with other things leaving no room for music. It's so easy though. Sing, dance, play, sing some more. Sing with your friends. Sing with your family. Make music and allow it to fill your soul and hold your memories.
Music is life.
Right now I'm trying to set more routines for myself- since doing the Design Your Day coaching over the winter, I can see which ones are really useful to me. The last month or so though I've been testing... Not doing the things I know are helpful. Guess what? I'm not working efficiently, I'm not sleeping well, and I'm crabby!
What I've maintained has been hot water and lemon in the am, and getting to the gym. Until now. No worries on the hot water and lemon, but I haven't been to the gym since Monday. My knee is causing trouble and so I thought I should rest it. What that means though is my routine is interrupted and I'm terrified that getting back into it will be tough. It stuns me how such a small interruption to a routine can mess it all up.
I've been getting stronger, my clothes fit better, my energy was great and now I'm feeling old, achy, and sorry for myself. WHICH IS RIDICULOUS! So much of my headspace right now has been taken up by death. I know right? Where did THAT come from?
The older you get the more death touches you. A few weeks ago, a lovely acquaintance passed away unexpectedly. She was my age. Within the same week, the wife of a friend passed away after a long battle with cancer. She was a brand new grandma. This week, every time I go on facebook or into my email, I'm afraid that I will see the news that another friend who is fighting cancer (cancer SUCKS), has passed away. No matter how sore or achy or crabby I am, someone else is fighting a much harder battle.
Thursday night I had a rehearsal for a concert I'm singing in this weekend. I was sitting because my knee hurts, and was feeling a little petulant. The words of one piece jumped up and slapped me-
"Why then should I be afraid? I shall die once again to rise an angel blest. Our birth is but a sleep and a forgetting; the soul that rises with us, our life's Star, hath had elsewhere it's setting."
Powerful words for sure, but what really created the emotional impact was the music. Without the music they are lovely for sure, and maybe that's enough for some people. But the music shoots those words right into your soul. It's like an infusion of new blood~ the melody, harmony, rhythm, dissonance coursing through your veins recharging your spirit.
Last night we rehearsed again and a different piece moved me ~ all the works we are singing are about death and life and resurrection and the SOUL.
Music Feeds Our Souls.
This is why I feel so passionately about the work I do with little ones and families. To be fed by the language of music, to get that infusion of new blood, you have to know it ~ we have to be immersed in it from the beginning of time... The language of music is primal and powerful, but if we allow the brains of our little ones to develop without it, those pathways in the brain will get filled up with other things leaving no room for music. It's so easy though. Sing, dance, play, sing some more. Sing with your friends. Sing with your family. Make music and allow it to fill your soul and hold your memories.
Music is life.
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