Time is flying by way too fast for me ~ Almost a month has passed since I last wrote and it's a blur. So much to process and think about and no idea where to start.
The pictures are of me and my chicks with the Mother's Day tree they planted for me many years ago. Someday I'll find pics from the past
years to show how they have all grown - the chicks and the tree. I'm the only constant. I hope that is how my children see me - as a constant in their life.
I know change is inevitable and in fact IS the only constant in life. When they were babies and toddlers, one of my mantra's (compliments of my sister Mary) was "This too shall pass." When they were up all night, or having tantrums or getting into messes, I would repeat "This too shall pass." Over and over and over again. It always worked.
Children are by nature, creatures of change. They grow and experiment and adapt and test and practice. Their whole
We get stuck in ruts and obsess about doing things certain ways. My general way of being is more like a child. I'm inconsistent and unpredictable. I start "plans" and get bored quickly. I try out new strategies and then discover there are other ones out there. Even I get stuck. I want some things to stay the same.
When my chicks were small, it was the frustrating annoying things that I wanted to "pass" and they did. Now the very things I want to stay the same are the ones that are changing. Everything changes.
Life is about change.
I love watching my chicks grow. I love watching them turn into amazing people. I know that they will change the world for the better. While very little about me stays they same, I want to continue to be their "constant". I will always be their mama. Like my sweet Mother's Day tree, I want to be strong and beautiful. I want to be available to them whenever they need me. Life is about change. Our relationships will change and evolve as they have from the moment I gave birth to them, but I will always be their mama.